Turbulent times and seasons of change
- Emily Bagaric
- Mar 30
- 4 min read
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Hello dear mamma,
I’m wondering how this post finds you today? In this very moment?
How is your heart and your soul? I’m sending you oodles of love and tenderness.
Something I have been deeply pondering and reflecting on, as mothers how do we tend to our own feelings and emotional states amongst a world war and such uncertain times, whilst staying grounded (enough) for our children and family units?
Perhaps this is something you have been navigating also.
Last week we handed over the keys to new owners after a decade of living in our home and on the land.
The land that has held us through some really big times and transitions, to say it was big would be a massive understatement. We are very much still in the bigness of the change and navigating a roller coaster of emotions daily.
That coupled with the global happenings over the past week have had me in a flurry of tears, a state of worry and fear very much creeping in about this massive life decision we have made.
We are currently parked up in a caravan, our new home on wheels, at my parents place getting to know our new van, new routines and ways of moving together (in a very confined space!!)
It’s been cold and wet and my husband is still working 5 days a week.
I have completely lost my movement practice and haven’t managed a workout in 2 weeks.
We are travelling ok, considering the enormity of change, but I’ve doubted, second guessed and wondered more than once what the F#*k we have done!?!
As the fear crept in a couple of days ago I really sat in a space of ‘how as mothers are we navigating times of change and uncertainty, without imparting that directly onto our children?’
I know children very much pick up on the energy of the home and they are incredible sensing beings that spend much of their time in their bodies, so theoretically I know how important it is to stay grounded (enough) amongst all the chaos and fear energy, but in practice that’s another thing.
For anyone that knows me well, knows I am all about feeling my feelings, and how much I value modelling that to our children and so I appreciate the importance of not sheltering my internal state completely, however finding a balance between staying present for them and available for what is happening in their bodies and little worlds is something I’m dancing with.
So what I am doing amidst the fullness of life at the moment?
Where possible I’m monitoring the people and conversations that are occurring around me. Choosing who I spend time with at the moment has been a really useful tool in supporting my whole body and system.
We’ve kept moving. Even though my movement practice has gone to pieces, we have continued the forward motion. This has been what’s benefited the boys and their emotional states the best. We frequent a skate park daily, or jump on the bikes and just move.
When boredom, and whiney behaviours begin, we make a plan to move, go somewhere, preferably outside. I notice my own body and system settling as I can better resource myself in these places.
I am trying not to plan too far ahead, (so hard for the planner in me!) but alas I believe this is what this time and season is offering me. As I’ve spent a large portion of my life always feeling somewhat in control of life and the decisions and plans I’ve made, to beginning to understand that life has it’s own plan and I’m here to simply life it as best as I can in the most aligned way possible.
I don’t know what the next few months or years are going to look like for us. And that feels somewhat liberating but quite a bit terrifying. And when I begin to spiral how can I come back to the here and now.
That’s all any of us really have anyway.
What matters now in this moment. How do I want to feel and move through my day?
How can I use the resources within and around me to continue to ground through troubling and turbulent times. My breathe, my body, my mind and soul.
It’s not easy, and I really appreciate as mothers, we are holding the majority of the emotional load in our homes. It’s big work, it’s uncomfortable to be present with what comes up for us and give it the space and compassion it needs, whilst meeting the needs of our children too. It’s messy and imperfect AND we keep going, because this is the way of the future. A whole generation of children to have had spaces and opportunities to express, feel heard and seen, and to witness parents doing the same. It has life long impacts and I truly believe it will change the world.
And I think we are all ready for some big changes in the crazy world of ours.
I’m here and listening to you mamma. If there is anything you would like to express I would love to hear from you. Hit reply and tell me something you are worrying about, or thinking about? The power of getting it out sometimes makes space for some new energy to flow.
Much love and connection,
Emily x
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